It's been awhile since my last post. And I guess there's reasons for that. This is still a bit of a "slow" point in my life. For those of you haven't been following me in the past, i've just graduated from college, gotten a job playing saxophone in the US Army, and i'm currently waiting to ship off to basic training. I really do think that life is about to get exciting/busy and I am psyched about that.
     It' s just awkward being where I am. I can honestly say that I know what it feels like to be a ghost now. To be more specific, the ghost of my college self. That part of my life is over now. What an experience that was! I've undergone so many transformations and added so many different perspectives to my omnipresent worldview. It's hard not to live in existential fear, but i'm beginning to rise to the occasion with the loss of my naivete optimism thank goodness. I'm finding that one should set expectations high and never give up. I can rise higher than I once realized.
    Now with only three weeks stand between me and basic training, I think i'm finally ready. Like I said, I feel like a ghost living in the situation that I am now. I'm not making any more than enough money to just get by. Almost all social interactions feel hollow and lacking in significance aside from just maintaining my sanity. I'm not going to see any of my college friends for a long time and there are some that I will never see again. I have no doubt that the next phase of my life is going to force me to embrace just as many new perspectives as this one and I welcome that with open arms. It's just that I feel caged in here. Something new, exciting, and full of significance awaits me, but I am still here. It is difficult to embrace this time, but i'm doing my best.